This year has been physically and emotionally draining for me. I will be glad when the clock strikes midnight on January 1st. Starting with the bone infection on my right ankle at the beginning of the year. Being hospitalized twice, once for surgery. Having at home IV treatments, I had a PIC line installed in me and the treatments were 4 hours a day., everyday for several weeks. The IV meds made me sick. During the blizzard I had stomach and backs spasms with no possibility of calling an ambulance..After the surgery the stitches didn't heal right and it all took a long time heal.
Then in June Attila got diagnosed with kidney disease, along with being blocked in his bowels and bladder.
I have to say that I'm thankful for my veterinarian. Without him, I could of lost Attila a lot sooner. Attila is still with me. Attila now gets weekly visits to the vet for IV fluids to keep him from dehydrating. Attila being sick has been emotionally. heart braking for me..I've had Attila for about 10 and a half years, he is my daily companion. My sweety hun. His passing when that will be will be devastating on me..His 13th birthday is in February, so go Tilly.
I have read about kidney disease in cats and found out its common in older cats..I never knew that until I researched and chatted with people who have cats with kidney disease. I have to say some of those people have done extensive treatments for their cats. I know I wouldn't be able to do that, because of my financial constraints.. What sadden me most is a lot of older cats from the time of diagnosis to the time they pass away is less than a year. I read about many cat owners having to euthanasia their cat because the cat is too sick to go on..I've never had to euthanasia an animal and I just can't think about it without it ripping me up inside.
About the same time Attila got sick, I took a job out of desperation. Any job would do at the time, after all I just starting to drown in vet bills. Basically the employment agency paid for my wages for the first six weeks
I worked for this company. About six weeks after the employment agency stopped paying my wages and the company had me on their payroll, they let me go.They told me that they had lost two contracts and this and that. So basically as soon as they got into a financial bind, immediately get rid of me. Don't even try to see if things will work out or try to find new contracts.. I have been dooped before. A job I had back in the fall of 2010, was even more short term, even though it was suppose to be permanent and the employer didn't pay me the last two weeks I worked for them.. So you know the national employment issue isn't always because lazy people who don't want to work, employers might have something to do with it.. I also realized that when I apply for jobs in future, I am more screwed because of these fluke jobs. For one I worked at home and two if they change their phone numbers nobody can call and check to see if I worked for them or not.
Then this fall I developed more health issues. More specialist, pain and I almost had surgery but the doctor felt it wasn't needed.I have been doubting more and more my ability to be employed and staying employed..
My therapist tells me in therapy every time you talk about something negative you should talk about something positive. Yes 2011 hasn't been all bad. In May I received a volunteer recognition award.. My niece Amaya was born in July. I joined a Non-Fiction book club.. I signed up to be a volunteer at the Public Museum. I saw Breaking Dawn. Somebody has to romance me.. The Muppet movie gave me warmth and happiness. Beavis and Butthead came back to make me laugh even when I'm in the worse pain. heh heh..
