I read my last post from October and I can tell that I was in sad shape. I was fearing the worst then. I had good reasons why. After my last post, I was treated in the hospital and then, put on a decent medication. The medication doesn't taste horrible either. More incentive to take it. It was bad timing in the middle of mid terms, overall I missed two weeks of school but I survived. Well, for the most part. I didn't do well on one mid-term and it shaken me a lot. I ended up dropping English at the last minute. I was
falling behind quick in English and I wasn't in the position to make bad grades. I knew when I started back at UWM, I had to make grade or be gone. Its like go big or go home sort of deal. Since I didn't do well on one mid term I really busted myself to study and do well on that particular history final.
The life of Ernest Everett Just is interesting; his struggle in the field of science and the struggle of other African American scientists should be acknowledged as along with their achievements.
Well I survived my first semester. Yah! I passed with a 3.0 for the term. Unfortunately my accumulative GPA is still in bad shape but its getting better. I went and saw my adviser last week and I need 42 credits to graduate. Next semester I'm taking intro to earth (geology), art history from renaissance to modern art and architecture, intro to linguistics and global violence, disease & death. You know something cheerful. Two of the classes I'm retaking. I can't believe somewhere far far away in time I failed that art history course. I know I can do better.
The big credits that I need to fulfill to graduate is math and language. I totally suck at math so I'm nervous about it. I haven't done major math like algebra a long time. I'm gonna need tutoring for sure to survive this. For foreign language I'm thinking about taking German. I hope it can help with my genealogy hunting someday.
Other things that I have been on my mind.... The morning of the mass shooting in Newton, I had a horrible dream that my ex boyfriend was trying to throw me outside of my apartment window. He was outside of my apartment window, trying to grab me. It was weird because I live on the 7th floor. So was he floating? I remember during the struggle, that I was holding a camera. He wanted to take the camera from me? I wouldn't let him. I just specifically remembered a struggle and yelling at him. Before he could get me out of the window I woke up. Why dream about him, I asked my self when I woke up? After all I haven't been with him since April of 06. I thought it was just an anxiety dream because finals were coming. I never thought I wake up and find innocent children dead.
I could of spent that whole day in a fetal position. I cried a lot that day. Its horrible when the president of the US can't keep his composure. More people in pain, added to I know someone who was in a mass murder, who everyday will mourn, miss the people they love and ask why? It really makes me disgusted with humanity once again. It seems like every time there is a mass murder dealing with domestic violence or children its like re opening an old wound that never completely heals. I'm really disgusted with others who have posted more posts on Facebook defending guns than condolences of the victims. Everyday I still see posts defending guns its kind of nauseating. No actually it is nauseating. Enough is enough.
In other miniscule things in my life, Christmas was good. Spent time with the family. All of this vacation I went back to my volunteer jobs. I've done a little bit of genealogy stuff and every night I have been playing scrabble with my youngest sister. I'm happy that 2012 is over. There was the good times, bad and down right horrible. Over all I think I have had a productive vacation. I did get some
sleep. I hope to have a good semester and my health keeps up with it. Crossing my fingers that I don't catch the flu.
On a side note I'm on a hunt for a new desk. What I really want is a traditional antique cherry desk with drawers on each side. Unfortunately I have found out how expensive that it. I really don't want to piss more than $500 on a desk. I need to find a brides maid dress before May. I don't want to piss a lot of money on that either. We'll see what happens with that.
