Dream May 3, 2006

I'm in a elevator with a woman. The elevator door opens and the elevator becomes unstable. Its feel wabbly. I get out of the elevator, and head towards the stair well.. The stairs are incomplete. The woman and a man try to imprison me. The man tells me that the incomplete stairs represent the gap between the rich and the poor. I'm alone in the dark stair area and I'm trying to escape. I'm using chains that are near me to lift myself up to the next set of stairs.

 Me and a woman were working on a project of some sort. Maybe a art and a huge tidal wave had crushed my house to smitherings. Me and this woman had survived the tidal wave.

The other dream I'm a solider stationed on a island between Cuba and the US. I tried to escape from the island. I'm in the ocean swimming. I eventually get caught, tried and imprisoned. I tried to escape again. This time im running through a crowd that is eating outside.. Maybe an outside resturant. I see a helicopter in the sky. I'm back in to the ocean swimming as hard as I can. At the end I see land. I escaped.

May 1, 2006
Poem I got somewhere

 Being Me

I'm a woman, a dreamer, a lover and a little girl; I'm me.
I'm a writer, a poet and a wisher.
Dont you see, that I'm me.
I'm not everything I wish I could be.
I'm a tender heart, a taker, a giver and sometimes a keeper.
I'm me, trying to please everyone, to be everything they want me to be.
I'm the ugly duckling, turning into a swan, my features change all of the time.
I'm me, and I'm always the mysterious one.
I'm the quiet one and the the sensitive one too,the watcher and the seeker of what's true.
I'm all of these things and maybe more, but who lets me just be me?

April 10, 2006 Dream
  In a church.. You were trying to tell me that you were better off in the outside world. Maybe it was a convent too? As you were telling me people kept interrupting us. Eventually you tell me everything you had to say. After that I remember walking in a hallway and seeing women uniformly walking pass me in groups. They were all dressed the same and I think they all had black hair. The outfits that they wore look like buddist monks outfits except they were black, purple and I think hot pink. Then in the main area and I was sitting in a pew and you were sitting in front of me. After a time the sermon ends don't remember what was said or anything. You stand up to leave first and then I start to leave but then I said goodbye to a bunch of people and I said Happy Easter to them. Sometime in the dream too somebody nailed two knick knacks on the church wall.

March 21, 2006
 First one: Someone had told me I was pregnant. I dont remember who told me. I felt pregnant through the whole dream. I was told that it was Tony's baby. I was in denial about being pregnant and I told people that it was impossible for me to be pregnant because I have not had sex since June of last year. I was put in the hospital. In one scene I remember being on a streacher and a nurse was trying to put a IV in me. In another scene somebody asked me about my schooling. I told them the only thing that was stopping me from going to school was 3200 dollars. I kept telling people the pregnancy must be a mistake and that I must have a tumor or something.

Second Dream:In this dream i was not told who the father was. Nor do I remember anyone telling me I was pregnant. I started to fell nausated. It was seen as labor pains. I'm in a delivery room. I was nausated in the whole dream. I dont rememeber being in serious pain just nausated. I made one push and the baby was born. It was a boy. Im holding him and he is cute and hairy. But it was light hair and he was pinkish looking like a newborn. He didnt cry but he seemed content in my arms. I made a comment that he looked like my dad. After that I decided that I was gonna name him after my dad, except that I wanted to give him a differant middle name and that his last name would be Vogel-Kellison instead of just Vogel. I remember my mom being there too but she was happy After the birth I think I almost threw up.

After these two dream I had two more but I dont have great deal of memory of them. One was that Holly was pregnant with a girl. The child was weird looking though. She had orange curly hair. Holly has straight dark brown hair. The other was another dream about me bring pregnant and I was in pain again. Except this time I didnt give birth and I found out that I was having a girl.

Well Last night Holly called me and told me she was pregnant. All this week I was bothered by this pregancy dreams and I was trying to find a good interpreation of them. The one that I was thinking that I had creativty in me that needs to come out but has not way of doing it and because not being able to express that creativty it is making me sick. Or was it just a prediction that someone in my family was pregnant ???